What would you do if you feel hopeless? Feels like you are born for nothing. Feels like you are useless. People keep seeing you as someone stupid, someone that is incapable of doing everything.

I feel like I lose my desire to do anything. I just want to do nothing. I don’t know what I live for. I don’t know if anyone ever think about me as me, not as someone who can be told what to do. I want to be seen as a human being who has control over what I want.

It’s so frustrating to think that I was trying to defend on what I believe yet people still discouraged and thought that I wasn’t supposed to do that, that it’s wrong to defend myself, that it’s wrong to be assertive.

What should I do then? Do you want me to die instead????